So, officer tryouts were yesterday. It was a long and tedious process. First was the teaching part of the audition where each person had to teach the block band for 2 minutes. Caught completely off guard, I was the first one chosen to teach the block band.  I had no idea what I was going to do, so I thought up a lesson in like 5 seconds and just went with it. I did pretty well; the only thing I messed up on was that I fluctuated the tempo in my clapping while I was telling people to keep their posture straight and to roll their feet. About 3 hours and about 30 people teaching the block band, everyone met in the band hall to continue with the interview and playing portion of the audition. One at a time, all of the section leaders went in the instrument storage room to get their brains picked by the drum majors and directors. Since I was the first of the section leader candidates to go in the teaching portion, I was the last to go in the interview process. It was kinda nice going last since I got to hang out a lot in the band hall and talk to people. I got to mess with Lain's and Crystal's saxophones. It was fun. I couldn't play them though since we weren't allowed to make musical noises. I also talked to Lain about politics (well, tried). Tina, myself, Crystal, and Lain, and I think another person were talking about how expensive gas prices are ($3.50 average in Houston), and Crystal was giving false data and stuff. Then it transitioned to asking Lain if he was a Democrat or a Republican. He doesn't seem to be that interested in politics, but his mom is voting for Hilary, so I guess that means he's a Democrat by association. Hooray! Anyway, at around 8:10 I went in for my interview. It was kinda awkward in the band hall. I was the only section leader candidate left in there. The rest were the people trying out for drum major, and they were in a circle conducting around me. So yea, I went in for my interview. It was pretty easy. I went in, played my musical piece, they asked me to march a little, and then i sat down for my interview. My interview was extremely short. It consisted of one question: "Why do you want to be section leader?" So, I answered it and they said I could go.

So yea, I probably made section leader again this year since I did pretty well as a section leader this year. What I'm more concerned about is if I won the vice president spot or not. We find out who made what tomorrow night at the band banquet, so we'll see then.

In other news, yesterday after 4th period someone set fire to a trash can in the boys restroom. While I was walking to band class I noticed that there was smoke in the second floor and it smelled like someone was roasting marshmallows. I passed by the scene of the crime and there was an AP and 2 policemen outside the restroom. I'm guessing the fire wasn't that bad, but something troubles me. Why didn't the fire alarm go off?

Band officer tryouts were today. The process was really tedious, and I'm extremely tired from it. I'm not even done with my homework.
All in all, I did pretty well. I'll write more about this tomorrow since I still have to finish homework right now. <_<

I got to sleep in (well, not really) today. It was pretty relaxing. I got up at around 7:15, which is way later than when I normally wake up (5:40) and ate breakfast and all of that good stuff. Afterward, I just chilled in my room and did homework and other random things until it was time to leave for school. For all of the other standardized testing days I have to come at the regular time though. Oh well, it was fun while it lasted.

The school yearbooks came out today. They are amazing! The theme is pretty cool too. It's "Our Own Beat", and it revolves around music and stuff like that. A CD even came with it featuring the marching band, orchestra, choir, and student-formed bands. It's pretty awesome. I'm in the yearbook quite a lot too. Club photos and random people taking pictures of me had something to do with that. I'm kind of glad I'm in the yearbook a lot this year. It shows my commitment to the school and how involved I am in its activities and such.

Band officer elections and auditions are tomorrow. I have to give a speech in front of the band persuading them to vote for me. I kinda don't feel like doing it since the speeches don't really matter. Everyone pretty much knows who they're voting for by election day. I'm not too worried about losing anyway. I got a lot of people to vote for me, so I'm probably in good hands.

This weekend's gonna be my first weekend home since the spring trip. I don't really have anything planned, so I guess all I'm going to do is sit at home and do homework and go to SAT prep classes (which I really don't want to go to).

Band officer elections are starting up. I'm running for VP and section leader. The way things are going now I think I can get both positions, but you never know.

Now that we're getting closer to UIL some people in band are getting a little stressed (well, it's not really stressed, but it's something similar) over this. It's good and bad at the same time. For example, in one of our songs there's this one measure oboe solo. Despite having the music for 4 months, the oboe player still can't play it. In the past it wasn't a big deal, but now people are starting to get pissed at her for not knowing her music. As for me, I'm a little indifferent to this. It's true that she should  know the music by now, but I would feel kind of bad for getting mad at her since she's a freshman. Hopefully she'll practice really hard so that she will get it, and then it won't be a problem anymore.

I was supposed to have a conversation with Andy about Alan, but Andy never got on AIM today. I'll bug him about it tomorrow.

I need to start Algebra 2 homework and study really quickly for Chinese.

Ok so, a few days ago I was thinking about my past crushes, and I've found something in common with most of them. They all play saxophone. Zhi (I had a crush on him last year) played tenor, Tren played alto, and Lain played tenor. I don't know if this is an eerie coincidence, or something in me is attracted to people that play the saxophone. I'm more leaning toward it being a coincidence since I'm not like "D: they play sax; they're hot!" but you never know. *shrugs* I just think it's funny that they all play saxophone. Andy thinks it's cute for some reason.

Anyway, my day overall was pretty awesome. I think what made my day awesome was what we did during US History. During US History we watched a video made by the US government during the 50s that showed people what to do when an atomic bomb hit. It was actually pretty funny despite the seriousness of it. I'm glad that today's smart enough to know that "duck and cover"ing isn't enough to save yourself from an atomic bomb. We also watched and episode of I Love Lucy where Lucy does a commercial for Vitameatavegamin. The whole class was cracking up through the whole thing. It made me want to watch more I Love Lucy. What was also awesome was what happened during band class today. Today, one of the administrators came in and talked to us about the band director situation. He pretty much said that the head is 3/5ths of the way to getting fired, and that they're trying to establish communication with him, but it's one-sided for now. The administrator is coming back next week to give us an update. I bet that'll be just as awesome.

Oh, I forgot something. Guess what Alan plays?
Yep. Saxophone.

Contest was today! :D
It was pretty fun. I had a good time mingling and fraternizing with my fellow band members. I also got to see my friend that goes to the school it was hosted at. It was nice talking to him. Although, I was a bit of a motor mouth telling him about our band director situation. I was done talking to him about that, and he was probably about to say some stuff, but this kid started talking to me about some random crap, and he went away. Oh yea, his name's Alan. I saw him last at solo and ensemble competition which was like 2 months ago. It kinda sucks that I don't really get to see him often. Maybe we could hangout sometimes or something like that. *shrugs*

Anyway, back to the contest. To my standards, we didn't perform too well. The last song we played, which is the hardest song in the program, we messed up quite a bit on because we couldn't keep in time too well. People were missing solos and stuff like that too. In the end we got a 1, 1, 2 which is an overall Division 1 rating (that's good). Despite the 1, I still think we have a long way to go before UIL (the real deal) which is on the 16th. Hopefully our performance will give us a good foundation on what we can improve in the short amount of time we have. Speaking of competitions, the piccolo player isn't coming to the South Padre Island competition with us, so I have to learn the piccolo part for the competition. I think I can pull it off.

Thanks to the assistant band director, I get to go to the state solo competition. I'm so happy! It would've sucked so much if I wasn't able to go to the state competition after working for almost a year on my solo. All of that hard work I did isn't worth not receiving anything in the end. In other news, I went blazer shopping after sectionals today. It was pretty adventurous, but I don't feel like writing about it because I'm mega tired. Maybe tomorrow.

Tomorrow's Ash's birthday, the Japanese luncheon, and April Fool's Day. It'll probably be exciting. At least I hope.

So we sailed our boats during Physics class today. It was really fun watching everyone in their boat. It was even more fun watching people sink. All in all, our boat did really well. Everyone was surprised at what we brought in since it actually looked like a boat and not just an enlarged rectangle with walls like everyone else's. I'm sure everyone was just as surprised to see it not sink.

There's more band director drama. Ok, so over the break he made an appearance on Monday at the color guard rehearsal. A friend in the guard told me that they saw him clearing out stuff, he was quite pale, and that he was talking to them like he was leaving. Of course, band gossip travels faster than the speed of light so pretty much the whole band knew and was excited by the possibility of him leaving. But, during 2nd period today he made an appearance to meet with the principal. It just so happens that a band person works in the main office during 2nd period so he told someone and then they told someone, and by the end of lunch everyone knew about the meeting. in band class the assitant director was telling us about the meeting and such, and he didn't seem to pleased. He started going off on a tangent talking about how much he cared for us and not to let anyone stop us from being succesful and things like that. During that tangent, he started to tear up. Now, our assistant director is a semi-pro football player/personal trainer/percussion instructor/assistant band director, so it's natural to be sort of surprised to see someone as buff as he is tearing up in front of us. On top of that, he was talking like he was never going to see us again after this year (implying that he would quit if the head director is still here next year) which put most people in a shitty mood. OH! I forgot to mention that more shit was added to our already shitty mood when we learned that the head director said that he was going to come back to work tomorrow. The weird thing though is that he can only work for half of the day because he was sick or something (he has a doctor's note to prove it too) so his work day is now from lunch to the end of the day which means he teaches 5th period (color guard), 6th (band), and 7th (nothing) while he assitant stays the whole day and heads the classes before lunch which is only the jazz band class. So yea, who knows how tomorrow will transpire as far as band goes. If he doesn't show up I'm going to laugh.

I'm off to study for German. We have a quiz over vocabulary words that are super long. Not to mention that I also have to write a US History DBQ essay (although, it's with a partner so it'll be somewhat easier) and an ADQ essay in English tomorrow. I'm not too excited about that.

Oh, the rooms for the spring trip have been finalized (I'm assuming). I'm officially in a room with Ramen, Alex and Ash (sophomore percussionist). I can't wait. It's in 22 days. :D

I went with a friend to Cactus (a music store) to watch a band called Via Audio perform. It was pretty fun. It was cool hearing them perform live. I bought their CD afterward and got the CD and the poster that came along with it signed by all of the members. I also got to shake hands with the bass player. He was pretty cool. He was dancing around the stage pretty much the whole time with his bass guitar. They have the most random signatures. I should scan them and upload them on to here. I don't feel like it right now since I'm kinda tired. I haven't been getting much sleep lately.

I'm a little worried about the situation of our band program. The assistant director was talking to us today and he didn't seem to happy. This was kinda alarming to me since he usually never shows any emotion on his face when he talks to us about important issues concerning trying to fire the head director. This time, however, you could sense a feeling of sadness when he was talking and see it in his face. It made me sad too. I knew exactly what he was sad about too (or, rather, had an idea). Most likely, the administration is going to keep the head director which means that the assistant will quit since he hates the head with a passion. I don't want him to quit. He's one of the coolest music teachers I've had, and it would make a lot of people sad/angry to see him go. Apparently, there's a meeting with a school administrator and the two directors. So, this means that if the head director doesn't show up then the assistant wins, if the head does show up then who knows what'll happen.

Speaking of band, the first chair flute (Hannah), Lain, and I were talking about hair (well, Lain's hair). Hannah wants to straighten it. It would look really funny straightened. She then said his hair looked like ramen noodles which cracked me up. The assistant director was nearby and told him he had to "do somethin' with that." I laughed some more. <_< We'll see what he does. Although, that depends on whether the head comes back since the assistant wants different things as the concert uniform. The head wants everyone (including girls) to wear slacks, tuxedo shirt, and a bowtie while the assistant just wants girls to wear a black dress with their hair straightened and guys to have a white shirt, black slacks, and a black blazer. (We're in dire uniform situation since the old uniforms were all thrown out. Without permission I might add).

Oh, Tina and I were talking about when Crystal was flirting with Lain today after school, and she shared some nice wisdom with me.

[21:04] Tina: well...i've determined that [lain] has a naturally flirty personality...not a manwhorish flirty personality, but a fun 'n' flirty personality
[21:05] I: yea, that's what i saw
[21:05] T: cuz he was flirting with u 2
[21:05] I: yea
[21:05] I: and that's why he's so awesome :D

Today was a pretty good day. I'm really starting to think that Lain doesn't care anymore that I like him. Here's why. Today I was on my way to 2nd period and I was walkstudying (studying while walking) and I happened to pass by Lain. He was talking with a friend and I walked past them and Lain pushed me (like he would before I asked him out/whatevershit). Of course, I pushed him back like the I would in the good ol' days. So yea, I'm awesome, he's awesome, we're all awesome.

Apparently, there was a bat in the school during 5th period. They extended the period to try to get it out. As usual, the school administration didn't tell us anything about it. They just said over the intercom that they would be extending the period and that the 2nd floor rooms should lock their doors. Even though I was on the 1st floor, my physics teacher went ahead and locked the doors anyway. I guess she thought a shooter was lurking around or something.

There was a playing exam during band class today. We had to play a certain section of the song for a pass/fail grade in front of the class. We went in backwards staff order (Tubas --> Flute) so, thinking that we weren't going to go, I used the period as nap time. I did hear some of the performances (including Lain's). He did good. He practiced. I hope I don't mess up tomorrow when I go.

I'm starting to hoard desktop wallpaper. It's becoming an addiction. :<

Let's now elaborate on what happened to me yesterday, shall we? We shall.

So yea, the main thing was Andy pissing me off so much for me to hit him. It was kinda for a stupid reason. Ok, so, I walk into the band hall during lunch after taking a make-up test for Chinese class and Andy says that he made dumplings and that I could have some. I eat them. So, I go and grab another one and he grabs me and starts yelling at me saying that I can't have another one (I've only had 2 so far). He said something like "I SAID YOU COULD ONLY HAVE TWO!!!" (mind you, he didn't tell me that before hand). Then he whacks me on the head. This threw me off the deep end. First he grabs me and yells at me for something I didn't know before hand I was doing wrong and how he hits me. Oh, hell no. I wanted to punch him but then I just whacked him back. I'm so tired of his shit. Seriously.

On to the rose from "Brandon". I'm so surprised Crystal and Andy still believe that Brandon asked me out when he clearly didn't. It makes me feel good. <_< Anyway, so during band Andy asked me what my second period was. Thinking it was for innocent reasons, I replied saying it was my German class. But then, fast forward to the band rehearsal after school. Tina comes up to me before the rehearsal starts and says that I'm getting a rose from "Brandon". So yea. I'm not really mad or anything. I'm indifferent to the matter. It'll be fun carrying that rose around. I hope it's a yellow one. Although, knowing how Andy and Crystal like to scheme, it'll probably be a red one. I'm soooo glad they didn't decide on a singing valentine too. Although...they just started going on sale so they might consider it. <_< I hope not.

Now for today! :D
During band today I had to play my solo that I'm playing for the Solo and Ensemble contest coming up (Carnival of Venice) for the class since during lunch the band director saw me practicing with my pianist. I got kinda nervous so I rushed so I played not as well as I could have. The class thought it was amazing though. It was probably because there were notes all over the place and it sounded cool no matter how many mistakes I made. After I played everyone clapped like normal, etc. The band director made comments on how well I played and stuff like that. I didn't believe him though. <_< As a musician, I'm really critical of my playing and stuff like that so I didn't think I sounded good when I performed for the class. My sound seemed really airy and stuff like that. Anyway... <_< When class was dismissed shortly afterward, a few people commented on my wonderful playing to me when I was at my seat (which is on the way to the instrument storage room). Lain walked by, but something odd happened. He walked by then slowed down as if he were going to tell me something, then sped up as if he changed his mind. If I'm interpreting this situation correctly, then this shows a little improvement in our relationship. I'm sure by the time the band trip rolls around (April) things will be really close to normal. I'm thinking if I try really hard I can do it.

For the first time ever my homework was finished before midnight. I'm amazed. This is probably an omen of the world ending or something like that. Or maybe an omen of good things to happen tomorrow. Who knows. <_<

I was talking with Andy earlier and a nice attempt at talking about Solo and Ensemble competition failed and proceeded to turn into an argument of sorts. Man, that kid is so bitter it drives me nuts.


I mean seriously, why be in band when you're going to do something like that?

In other news, I'm trying to figure out Lain's 2nd and/or 3rd period so I can send him the rose. I'm not getting anywhere so far. The only lead I have is that he might have Russian 2nd period. I know where the room is, and it's pretty close to my 1st period so I can just walk by the Russian room and see if he walks in there. I also know his 1st period (unless it changed) which is close to my 1st period so I can attempt to follow him. Although, that's kinda stalker-ish, and I run the risk of being late to 2nd period since that class is on the other side of the school.

I was talking with Andy a day or two ago over AIM. We were talking about our love problems (I guess you could call it that) and the topic switched to Lain and I. It went like this.

[19:35] I: yea..
[19:35] I: i shouldn't really fret about stuff like that
[19:35] I: things are going better than expected
[19:36] Andy: really?
[19:36] I: hell yes

Andy didn't really like it when I said "hell yes" since he thought I was hiding my deep depression for being rejected by Lain and stuff like that. In a way, that's kinda true although a little unintentional. I think feeling sad and depressed about things is sometimes really unnecessary. Therefore, I highlight all of the good things that have happened in this situation so far (the fact that he hasn't told anyone, he still talks to me a little, etc.) so that I won't come across as pitiful to other people (well, the people that know) and so that I'll feel better since being depressed sucks. Although, as of now, I'm not being put down as much as I was the day or two after I told him I like him since things have happened to me that have, in a way, made up for my rejection. In fact, the rejection wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. It was basically "Well...I'm straight.", not like "GET AWAY FROM ME YOU FAG!" so it didn't sting as much. I also expected that he would basically fall of the face of the earth since I thought he would be avoiding me and not talking to me. I do now know though that that isn't the case. From what I perceive, he doesn't seem to avoid me nor not want to talk to me. Despite the fact that all of this is happening, I still get jealous in some situations like when he teases people like he used to me and other things of that sort. All in all, I guess Andy doesn't understand how some of the people he know work and how they deal with certain situations. Or maybe I'm just conning myself.

On a lighter note, today in band I switched places (and instruments) with my friend Tina for like the first few minutes of our warm-up. It was kinda fun playing the bass clarinet, but I didn't know a lot of the notes, and I didn't know how to tongue correctly on a reed instrument since I don't play one. I'm planning to switch places with my saxophone bunny, Crystal, tomorrow to see what sitting in the sax section is like. It'll be fun. Oh, speaking of band, it was the end of class and I was putting up my instrument in my case at my seat. I was cleaning it out a little and staring off into space. While that was happening, Lain comes walking by to go to the storage room where all of the lockers are and such, and I swear he turned and looked me straight in the eye while I was spacing out. It was odd, to say the least.

I read my entry from yesterday and it made me laugh. When I wrote that, I just woke up from falling asleep while doing homework so I was in a daze. It gets my point across though so it's fine.

So, we got back our marching band group picture today and I couldn't help but feel a feeling of nostalgia or something like whenever I looked at Lain. I don't wanna say it's nostalgia, but I would get that feeling as if you looked at a picture of someone who's dead or an old friend or something. It made me realize how much I really do miss him even though he isn't really completely out of my life. It also made me realize what my true goal under all of this is. I'm working toward getting us to talk together so that the "relationship" between us doesn't change anything. I'm thinking that it'll take a while, but I might be surprised. This whole situation ever since I told him I liked him has been a big surprise to me.

Today was the day the band did their panoramic photo. It was pretty interesting. I bet I looked retarded in the photo. I was the only one with a piccolo and I didn't know how do hold it since the picture guy told the flutes to hold their flutes to the side. When I held my piccolo like that, you couldn't even see it. That created a little bit of a problem so I just raised it up with my hand so it would be seen. I hope I don't look super tense in the picture, but we'll see tomorrow when they pass them out. Also, an interesting note, I was directly in front of (or pretty close to directly in front of) Lain in the picture. I found that pretty funny.

Speaking of Lain, I talked to him during band today. It was a very short lived conversation but it's better than nothing. I don't remember the dialog exactly, but I do remember that it was about traveling out of the country (more specifically, going to Mexico). I said I didn't and we talked for like 30 seconds on stuff about that. I wish it wasn't so loud in the band hall so that I could hear him more clearly without having to say "WHAT?" every time he talked. Oh well.

Oh, also. Lain's mom was there at school while we were taking the panoramic photo. It was weird. I think she gave me a weird look again, but I could be just imagining it. I love how she brings her other 3 kids along too. They're so cute. <_<

Lain is one of those people who I call "drifters". Basically, drifters, in a social setting, don't really stay with one group of people and talk with them at one time. They usually drift about and talk to different people. This quality can reflect something good and something not good about you. On one hand, it could mean that you're a social butterfly and has many friends, or, on the other hand, it could mean that you don't really have (or haven't really found) your close-knit group of friends that you have. Unfortunately, it's most likely the latter for Lain. During band class today we had no teacher for about half of the period since the band directors, a couple of horn players, and the whole color guard went to a middle school to do some recruiting. Because of that, everyone basically did whatever they wanted. I listened to Anathallo and slept on a stand for about half of the period. In the middle of the period the people came back from recruiting. One of the people that returned was an officer from Thai Club and asked me about the luncheon tickets and stuff like that. Lain was with her also. I didn't even notice until like a minute into our conversation. I looked over to him, made eye contact, and thought to myself "kay...." I was a little caught off guard by it. I was kinda expecting him not go near me or anything like that. I won't delve on this too much, but I'm thinking that this is a sign of good things to come. Although, I'm still kinda caught in between trying to talk to him so that we can still have some friendship between us or, to take it easy on the talking to him so that he doesn't think I'm still trying to get him as a boyfriend. Any suggestions? I'm kinda tired of sending him Facebook messages (and I told him I'd stop) so that option is gone.  Maybe leaving something in his instrument case would work. Or maybe nothing at all.

There was an All-City Band rehearsal today. It was pretty boring. This band is way worse than the All-Region one so we spent a long time warming up and working on little mistakes repeatedly in the songs that we're going to play. I guess that's ok though since this All-City Band thing is supposed to be a learning experience. An experience to offer some of the better players in the district to play with people on their level (or in some cases people better than they are). It's not really much of an experience when you already play with pretty decent players in your school band already. I swear, All-City was just like being in my school's band class except with way more people and for a way longer period of time.

The All-Region Clinics were today. It was kinda boring. I was pretty exhausted from school so I spacing out so much during the rehearsal. I didn't look at the music much before hand so I didn't know how to play any of it. At first I felt kinda bad about it but then the girl sitting next to me didn't know it either so it made me feel better. The music was pretty easy to learn. I got the general idea of it after going through them during sectionals. There are more rehearsals tomorrow and a concert afterwards. It'll be a real time suck and I probably won't have any time to do homework.

The title of this entry is the name of one of the pieces we're playing for our concert. It reminds me of the saying "the sky's the limit" which pretty much means you can do anything if you put your mind to it. Something like that. Anyway, this kinda reminds me of my situation with Lain and all since I really want to accomplish something that's unorthodox with things like this. I already accomplished one thing by telling him that I liked him in person and now I want for us to talk to each other again by the spring trip which is in April. If he replies during the weekend to the message I sent him then I think I'll have a good path to my "goal" of sorts. No bad things have been happening so all is going well with this. It's better than I expected.

I don't really have much to say. Although, I had an interesting conversation with a friend, Tina, about Lain a few hours ago. I'll share it with y'all. It shows a lot of about my whole telling Lain I like him predicament and it might have some things that I haven't mentioned on here. So, it's an interesting read.



Note #1:
Ok, so, Lain doesn't really have any friends. Well, it's not that he doesn't have any friends, it's just that he doesn't seem to have a best friend or best friends that he tells pretty much anything to. The closest person that fits that category is Gary since he and Gary seem to talk a lot. They play the same instrument (tenor saxophone) so there's one thing they have in common and usually in band people that play the same instrument have a really tight bond. Unless there's someone outside of band he tells everything to, Gary is the best candidate. The only way to tell though is if Tina gets any info about Lain and I when school starts (and they're in the same speech class). We'll just have to wait and see. (Heh, that should be my catchphrase or something.)

Before I start. Thanks for comments. They're fun to read. Also, I had some finals today. I took my German and Physics final. Both of them were pretty hard. The German one was practically all true or false which really tripped me up. Physics was just plain ol' hard. I hope I didn't fail that one.

So, I'm beginning to understand why Tren has started to ignore me. I will use wonderful AIM logs to explain this. Note: My friend, he'll be called Andy, told he in English class a few days ago that he figured out why Tren was ignoring me, so... this is how it begins.

[20:05] I: ok, so why is [tren] ignoring me?
[20:06] Andy: ok, remember that note some1 wrote to [nick]? (Note: Nick is the person who Andy likes)
[20:06] I: yea
[20:06] A: well
[20:06] A: i'm won't tell u who wrote it (i found out btw)
[20:06] A: so apparently
[20:06] A: that person
[20:06] A: talks to [tren]
[20:06] A: and told him something along the lines of
[20:06] A: "stay away from [me] and [andy], they r gay"
[20:07] I: and why can't i know who this person is?
[20:07] A: it's my business....
[20:07] I: it's kinda my business too since that person revealed half of my sexuality to [tren]
[20:07] I: <_<
[20:10] A: w/e
[20:11] I: >_>
[20:12] I: well, i wanna know
[20:12] I: but, oh well
[20:13] A: well u can't know
[20:13] I: ok
[20:16] I: at least he isn't verbal of his "homophobic-ness"
[20:17] I: wait....
[20:17] I: how is this your fault?
[20:17] I: and why do they know i'm "gay"?
[20:20] A: they don't
[20:20] A: but
[20:20] A: they know i'm gay
[20:20] A: and since u associate with me
[20:20] I: oh
[20:20] I: that's stupid
[20:21] A: well it's true
[20:21] I: i'm not gay because you're gay ,_<
[20:21] A: because i caught them talking after 6th period today (Note: 6th period is band. It's so funny how everything happens in band)
[20:21] A: and i heard
[20:21] A: "[me] and [andy] r gay lovers"
[20:21] A: then they saw me
[20:21] A: and shut up
Self-explanatory right there.

Also, I now understand why Crystal is a little jealous of me for liking Lain. Ok, so, around last year I'm guessing (she didn't tell me when) she liked this guy named Brad. Brad looks pretty similar to Lain except that Brad is way taller than Lain so naturally she would at least feel something toward Lain. She tells me that it's a "fondness" but I know she won't tell me the complete truth. Speaking of Lain, he was "flirting" (seemed like it to me but it just might be wishful thinking) with me during our break in between finals. The most remarkable thing that he was doing was that he took my Physics review packet away from me and stuck it near the garbage. <_<

I uploaded an album for a friend so I might as well share it on here. If Russian indie rock is your thing then you must have this.
In Verse - demo
http://www.mediafire.com/?fb9guqjntlw