and when we kissed
it didnt feel poisonous
and when you cried
i dried off your blue eyes

- Margot and the Nuclear So and So's (A Sea Chanty of Sorts)

Those lyrics really moved me the first time I saw them. It made me picture Lain and I since Lain has blue eyes and it sounds like a possible scenario in which we would be in. It's very romantic also. All of these rosy images aren't really helping me since I'm not even sure if Lain likes me. I don't think I've mentioned this, but I'm asking him out (my friend likes to say "confess", but I don't like that word for some reason so I'm going to use "ask out") on Thursday (by the latest). I'm pretty much going to do it at anytime next week. I'm scared out of my mind too. I don't know how he'll handle me liking him and if he'll tell other people or not. I don't think he has any friends in band that he'll tell secret things to (with the exception of me, ironically, I think). Even if he does tell someone and it gets out to the band I don't think it would matter since my friend tells me that I'm well liked so, therefore, people would accept my sexuality. We'll have to wait and see though.

Something interesting to note. Lain is a little taller than I so it would be kinda awkward to dry off his blue eyes. <_<