Before I get to my dream, I'll narrate about my day.

So, in the morning on the way to 1st period, I pestered Lain about giving me $1 since he owes me because I bought him a cinnamon bun he wanted. The discussion then evolved into the band competition we have tomorrow and stuff about that. Oh, he also got a haircut. It's like...uh....2 inches shorter (I suck at measurement estimations), and it's still curly. It's pretty nice. It could be a little longer though. That's kind of the point of getting a haircut though. You get it cut a little shorter than it normally is so that it can grow back into the normal length. Anyway, in Chinese we did nothing. In German we played this weird game where we had to think of words in certain categories that started with a certain letter. It was pretty hard. There was a quiz in US History which I probably got a 45+/50 on. The quizzes are open note, and I didn't have some of the answers in my notes, so I just took a few guesses. Hopefully, that won't impact my grade that much. Skip over to Physics in which we had a test. It was over sound and waves so it was pretty easy. There weren't that many formulas, and it was all multiple choice, so it was a little easier than most of the tests. I hope I did well on it, so I can have a B average in that class. Band kinda sucked. We were rehearsing for a competition tomorrow, and we were totally sucking on the last song in our concert set ("Festivo"). It made me kinda worried that we weren't going to do well. But, our band has a history of doing really well where it counts, so hopefully that'll happen come tomorrow. In English we wrote a rhetorical analysis essay. It was pretty tough since I haven't written a rhetorical analysis essay in a long time, but I managed to squeeze one out of my brain. Finally, after school I went to an AP English multiple choice practice session. It was pretty fun, but I didn't get to finish. I skipped a whole set of questions, so I only got 14 of the 38 right. I would've gotten more if I had the time to finish them. :| Oh well.

Now, on to the dream. It's pretty hazy, but I remember the gist of it. Ok, so, I was at my school, and I was in the library or someplace like that taking the SAT. For some reason, I randomly get up and leave and start walking around. I walk down this slightly dim hallway, and I see Ash making out with someone. They looked male to me, so I did a double-take when I walked by them, and he was making out with a guy. I then said out loud "Hmm, I didn't know Ash was gay." Then I woke up.

I have such an active imagination.

Last night I had a pretty strange dream. Ok, so it was nighttime, and I was outside some building (it was like a skyscraper-type building). For some reason I wanted to get inside. So I was trying every door imaginable, and they weren't working. I call my mom asking how to get it. She says what she always says about me getting locked out of the house (something about the key being hidden). I find a key in my pocket, and I unlock the door. But, the door was to some old mansion that was (I guess) next door. The door lead to some stairs. I walk up them, and I'm led into a living room with a couch and TV. There are two elderly people sitting on the couch and just staring out into space. The TV isn't on, and they don't acknowledge me. I then walked into the kitchen next door and see this woman in her 50-60s. She mentions that she used to babysit my parents and their relatives, stuff like that, for pretty much forever. (Here's where it starts to get fuzzy.) She starts to give me a tour of the house, and she starts talking about random things. (Fuzzy ends). The sun starts to rise, and she then shows me these old books which have my family history in it. She says that pretty much everything about my family imaginable is in there. I ask if anyone in my family was involved in WWII. She says no. I woke up.

I dreamt about other things as well, but I don't remember them as well as the dream mentioned.

I'm thinking about running for band vice president. I think I can get a lot of votes. I pretty much have all of the woodwinds. Although, that depends on who runs. I'm hearing things that a fellow flute sophomore and a baritone sophomore are running which make things a little bit more complicated. The baritone player would, of course, get all of the brass votes, but if the flute player also runs, then he might get a little bit of the brass vote and a little bit of the woodwind vote. The only thing that I have working to my advantage is the color guard vote (although...the flute player's girlfriend is in color guard...). So yea, it's quite complicated. Either way, I'm still going to run since I'm pretty popular within the band and since the band is pretty small, it doesn't take much to get a majority.

I've been so bored lately. My closest friends are all in cool places on vacation. Ramen is in France, Tina is in Los Angeles (or is it San Diego...), and Crystal is in the middle of nowhere, Arkansas (I'm not too jealous about that. :p)

So yea, our Rube Goldberg project for Physics was due today. It was pretty sweet. Even though our project (I worked with Ramen on it) had a few things missing that we were counted off for, we had some extra things that got us bonus points so I guess those canceled each other out. As long as we don't fail I'm fine. I'm not really too concerned with my grade in that class anymore since I got a 92 on the last test (which counts twice). I hope I get a B in that class.

We meet for advocacy on Wednesday. I'm thinking of giving them Valentine's candy since it's the day before Valentine's and because I'm awesome like that. Hopefully the lesson has a discussion of some sorts so that I can get more people to talk than the usual people.

Also, I have suspicions that there are 2 other gay/bi people in band. One plays clarinet. The other plays baritone. I could probably be wrong though. I'm not too good at that kind of thing. Maybe I'm doing this because I want more peers to identify with. *shrugs*

I forgot to mention that I had a dream when I fell asleep after getting home from Solo and Ensemble. Basically, in the dream Lain and I (along with a couple of other people) were pretty much going places and doing stuff. It was nice. That day, I originally planned to nap for about 20-30 minutes, but that dream turned that into about 2 hours.

And.....the week ahead:

Tuesday:
- US History quiz
- French luncheon
- English essay
- Band rehearsal
- Freshman mentor meeting

Wednesday:
- Chinese test
- Flute lesson

Thursday:
- Valentine's Day (Speaking of that, I'm getting a carnation as well as a rose from "Brandon" because of poor communication between Andy and Crystal)
- Algebra 2 test

Friday:
- Party

Today was the concert for the All-City Band. It was boring yet fun at the same time. The only reason it was fun was because I got to talk to my friends and other people that I didn't know. All in all, the concert went pretty well. No mess-ups or things like that.

Not much to talk about. I don't have a lot of homework this weekend which is good.

Oh, I just realized something. I had a dream with Lain in it. It was kinda stupid. All I remember is me passing him in the hallway and I said "hey" and then he said something, but I couldn't quite make out what it was. I didn't think much of it since he's talked to me before. It all goes back to that Dr.Seuss quote I posted earlier. Anyway, I could milk some meaning out of this little segment of a dream, but I won't. At least not right now.

Now that school is out for the holidays it feels like my life (well, my social one) is on pause. More specifically, the scenario that's going on between Lain and I. Ever since I told him I like him, it seems like nothing is progressing (as in nothing new is happening) since we've been away from each other because of school, the Internet, and geography. But, I'm planned a movie trip that's coming up and hopefully a lot of people are coming so maybe then he'll come. Although, I'm organizing this through Facebook and because Lain doesn't really get on Facebook he might not know about this. Because of that, the only way he would know of this is through word of mouth which is practically non-existent without the Internet and school. So, he might not even go. Come to think of it, if he did know about this he probably wouldn't go anyway since I would be there. I dunno. <_< Anyway,  I hate being stuck like this. I hate not progressing in any situation. I'll just have to deal with it. Only 11 days until school starts up again. Haha, this is probably one of the only times in which I want school to begin.

In other news, last night I had a dream with Lain in it. It was during band class and the director ended class early for some reason so people were visiting and such. I was doing something off in some corner then I went back to where Lain was sitting and sat next to him (or was it the other way around...) and we started talking and having a normal conversation. It was surreal. I woke up after that thinking it was real. After a few seconds of thinking about it I realized it wasn't real. Haha. I love dreams.

Lately, I've been having dreams that I'm interpreting to have this idea of freedom. They're interesting.

Ok, so in the dream I had Thursday night I was in The Gulf of Mexico floating around with people (I didn't recognize any of them). Suddenly, I see dolphins floating around me. One then begins to push me quickly around the water on it's nose. It felt amazing. I guess this has a theme of freedom since I've heard (or I think I've heard) people say that when they're swimming with dolphins that they felt free.

In the dream I had last night I was in this canyon type place. There was a river/stream-thing going through it and the canyon walls had vegetation growing around it. There were some people there that I actually knew, but I never really talked with them much. I have no clue as to why they were there. Anyway, so I was there with them and we were hiking around and such. It felt really good. It was calming.

I was thinking about the reasoning behind me having these dreams, and I've come up with a theory. Ever since I've told Lain about my love for him, I guess I've felt more free. Maybe what I've done has given me the idea that if I can do what I just did then I can do anything. Not a lot of people that I know have done what I did so maybe that's why in my subconscious I feel free.

Speaking of Lain, I can't help but always think about what must be/must have been going through his mind now that he knows. I wish he would talk to me about it. I can't really explain this desire either. Maybe it's because I have this mindset that if you talk it out then it makes things so much better. It can also free that idea from your mind. Also, it's because it would make me feel better since, by nature, I want to talk to him. But, when I do talk to him, I don't want to make it all awkward and stuff. I think I'm asking for too much.

This is a little irrelevant, but it has recently bugged me so I might as well let it out. Remember Andy? Well, he gets on my nerves extremely badly. He is so arrogant it drives me nuts. Everything has to be about him. He doesn't care about anyone else but himself. So, what has put me off the deep end? Well, I suggested a trip to the movies with my little close-knit group of friends, and I suggested that we invite other people besides ourselves so that it would be more fun. Well, guess who didn't like that idea. Yay for AIM logs!

[18:49] Andy: no inviting random band ppl to movies
[18:49] I: why are you on the computer?
[18:49] I: also, why not?
[18:50] A: i'm on the computer cuz i'm not gonna play games
[18:51] A: and also
[18:51] A: y?
[18:51] A: it's stupid
[18:51] A: i don't wanna see band ppl during my break
[18:51] I: what about the other people
[18:51] A: like who?
[18:52] I: [names of other people in my close-knit group of friends]
[18:52] I: they might want other people to come
[18:52] A: i don't care
[18:52] A: if u wanna go w/ other ppl
[18:52] A: do it at ur own time
[18:52] I: ok
[18:52] I: well
[18:52] I: if you hate band people so much
[18:52] A: ok well
[18:52] I: you don't have to go
[18:52] A: i don't care
[18:52] A: i'm going to see my friends
[18:53] A: don't be a bitch
[18:53] I: ....
[18:53] A: who else in band would u invite?
[18:53] I: people in the flute secton
[18:53] A: no
[18:53] A: u can have a flute section outing some other time
[18:54] I: ...
[18:54] I: is it really that bad of a thing?
[18:54] A: u know wat
[18:54] A: i have a better idea
[18:54] I: if you want to be anti-social about this you can just not go
[18:54] A: i'm already pissed off enough today, if u gonna be a bitch, fine, keep on doing it, bye
[18:54] *** "A" signed off at Sat Dec 22 18:54:47 2007.